The Teachings of Spirit

Note from Regina: Before writing this message with HS, I had this clarity:

Ego = I Am not Existence
With this underlying belief, the ego cannot help but fear.

Question: Good morning, Holy Spirit. Please talk to me more about the fear of not existing. I feel like I am getting the edge of some important clarity, but I would like to talk to you so this clarity can be pulled more into the level of consciousness.

Answer: You are beginning to see that attaching your identity to the ego is a decision that must engender fear and suffering. And you can never be completely free of fear and suffering as long as your identity is attached there. For always, there will be some idea that threatens the idea of your existence, and always you will feel compelled to react to that.

Question: Right now I am seeing how true this statement is. I can feel total panic at the idea of some threats. I can feel lashing out in hatred at others. It seems that fear and hatred are the two primary responses to this fear, although those two responses can be numbed to the point that they are barely recognizable.

Answer: It is true that uncovering the ego can often result in feeling raw feelings that were not felt before, but some people have always felt the raw feelings and only the reasons for the feelings are covered up. They feel intense fear and hatred, but the reason for the emotions is put “out there.” You are uncovering the ego when you are in touch with the raw emotions and looking at the ideas that cause the effects of those feelings.

Question: Ok. So we need to look at cause and effect together before we can truly say that we see the ego. Until then, it is still hidden.

Answer: The ego is hidden in some very creative ways, so your willingness to see it must be very great if you are to see clearly all of the ways you have tricked yourself.

Metaphysical studies are helpful, but the primary purpose of those studies is to bring your willingness into alignment with your true desire using the tool of intellectual-awareness. But this work cannot be done if you remain at the level of intellect. You must place the desire for intellectual-controlling aside and be willing to understand through awareness.

Awareness-understanding is seeing. It is experiencing for oneself. You can have awareness-understanding without intellectual-understanding and it is still pure understanding. But if you have intellectual-understanding without awareness-understanding, you do not understand at all.

You must see what you are doing, and you can only see when you truly desire to see. Intellectual-understanding isn’t truly needed at all, although it can be helpful in increasing your desire.

Question: Ok. And I can see that the greatest obstacle to seeing is fear.

Answer: Yes, and fear comes from the judgment you are wrong.

Question: Alright. Well as you know, I seem to go through periods of being very conscious of fears and through periods of being less conscious. Right now I am in a period of being more conscious, and it’s very difficult. What would you recommend, both to me and my partner?

Answer: Remember that your purpose is to see. Become very focused on the idea that you want to see, and that will help to overcome the desire not to see. Be willing to be slow and patient. You can be clearly focused without frantic searching. Don’t forget to rest and breathe, even as you are overcome by feelings that are the effect of believing illusion.

Sometimes you seem very lost. When you are lost, just rest and wait. Rest and wait as long as it takes, and avoid acting or making decisions from there.

When you feel the peace and knowing of clarity, act and move from there.

When you are lost in confusion you are not clear. Don’t listen to your mind then.

When you are clear, trust your knowing. Do not doubt when you know.

Question: You’ve been asking us to get in touch with our true Self, but I find this very hard to do in the midst of so much fear.

Answer: When you are hearing “rest and wait,” you are hearing the Voice of Peace and you are in touch. So stay focused on the “rest and wait,” and let everything else just be. Stay slow. In slowness, you listen to the quietness because the intent is aligned.

Question: Anything else?

Answer: I’m giving you everything. Stay focused on the desire to see. Stay slow. Stay quiet. Hold hands and love one another. The ego has set up strong defenses that you are not yet seeing, but through your willingness and with the help of a strong, loving partnership, you shall see.

Question: The partnership isn’t necessary, is it?

Answer: This partnership has the potential of being very, very helpful if you both choose to see it that way. Do not underestimate the helpfulness you bring to each other. Do not let the mind tell you that “out” is a better way. The part of the mind that wants “out” is fear. The part of the mind that judges and hates is fear also. Learn not to listen to fear, and you will more easily know the unblinded guidance of your heart.

Question: Holy Spirit, our true desire is clear and our challenges/fears are becoming more clearly seen. The temptation to pull apart is strong, because in each other we seem to face our greatest fears. Our experience now seems very, very tough. What would you share?

Answer: The more you do together, the better. You each need your own space, your own quiet time apart, but right now you also need more time together. See the time you spend together as foundation-building. Since your relationship is the foundation you have chosen to help yourselves awaken, foundation-building (or relationship building) is important. Be together in a variety of ways. Pray together, play together, read together, share in work together…

You don’t have to make yourselves be together more than you truly desire, but if you look within you will find that you desire to be together, sharing, more than you are because you both desire the strengthening of this foundation.

Question: What about…

Ahhhh! I’m having a tough time asking this next question. It is hard because there is so much judgment and fear in my mind. I am judging the question and I am judging me as the scribe. I have a huge fear that I am just writing what I want to hear. This fear is so big that it makes me want to throw down my pen and runaway and hide. I feel it in my chest.

Before I continue, what would you share about my fear?

Answer: A scribe creates her ability to scribe. This is a creation in that it takes the formless and brings it into form. (In this way, I do not use the word “creation” in the way that A Course in Miracles uses the word. I use “creation” in the way of an artist.)

An artist creates his painting or his sculpture or his magnificent musical piece of work, but any great artist will also tell you the work was born through him. He both created it and he didn’t. He created the piece of work by allowing it to be born through him in a specific form.

The scribe does this. She allows the birth of formless into form as a specific expression through being a scribe.

Because the scribe is a partner or co-creator in the birthing of what may be considered “holy words,” she can also feel guilt or fear about these words. She can fear that her ego sometimes does the writing. She can fear she is not open enough or hearing deep enough. She can even fear that she is making up the entire scribal experience and there is no co-creation with anything divine. The latter may be the greatest fear for many people who are scribe.

The best thing a scribe can do is allow the flow of words that comes through her. She can feel the flow as it comes through at a consistent rate without a break in the flow. Trust this flow that keeps flowing like a river running downhill. It is different than thought, which is rambling and seems to fire from all directions. It is a steady flow that seems to come from one consistent source. As long as the words are coming in this flow, write down the words that you hear.

Your next question frightens you because it is a question that addresses the greatest fear that you have. You are afraid that your fear will be a block to hearing Me or that it may be your ego that answers. You are also afraid, since you fear that scribing may be a human creation rather than a co-creation with the divine…you also fear that asking this question may be exposing yourself as a fake. You’ve had this fear for a long time, and it comes up around many questions. It is time to look at your greatest fear, because it is your greatest fear that hurts you the most.

I understand that facing your doubts is difficult for you, but that is only because you fear your doubts are real. In facing them, you will learn they are not real. In willingness and readiness, and out of a pure desire to take this step, ask the question you fear to ask now.

Question: Holy Spirit, the question is about Ho’oponopono. I seem to have three questions about it. 1) Isn’t it a practice of seeing a problem on the screen instead of accepting everything as perfect now? 2) Doesn’t it forget about the free will of the Son of God? That is, doesn’t it not allow upset and illness when upset and illness may be chosen? 3) If we are looking to the screen for a change in effects, aren’t we going to be disappointed and therefore lose ourself on the screen?

Answer: Eckhart Tolle also sees a problem on the screen. Jesus, as he seems to come to you in many forms, also sees a problem on the screen. All great healers see a problem on the screen and want to fix it, not because they believe it is real, but because they know you do. A great example is the example of a parent who is helping a child. The child may be afraid of monsters under the bed or in the closet. The parent knows there is nothing to fear. But the parent may still perform some magic; he may talk the monsters into leaving and then show the child they are gone. He does this to address the child in a way that will generate a moment of ‘no fear.’ He knows the child’s fears may return tomorrow night; he knows what the child feared is not real; and he knows a day will come when the child will outgrow his fears. Still, he does what he does now to bring peace to the child now in order to be truly helpful.

This is what a healer does. He reduces fear through the willingness that fear be lessened in order to provide rest and a greater opportunity for awakening. To ignore fears that seem very real is not helpful. That only generates more fear. To address those fears lovingly while also knowing they are not real is a loving and gentle way of helping the mind awaken. But in order to do this you must be able to see the fears. Seeing them and believing them is not the same thing. Fears can never be healed by believing they are real.

If you are looking to the screen for effects and you believe fear is real, you will experience great upsets when there does not seem to be a change in effect. When you look to the screen for a change in effects and you do not believe it is real, you will not experience the same upset. You will, however, continue to feel called to be helpful. As long as fear is pictured on the screen of the mind, those who understand that the mind is dreaming will do what they are called to do in order to help the mind awaken.

Question: And what about us, specifically Laurent and me?

Answer: You experience a lot of fears and you do not yet realize that your fears are not real. However, you are ready to grow from childhood into adulthood by letting go of imaginary fears. Again, this is why you have come together.

When you are ready to address your fears and let them go, it is no longer helpful to depend entirely on magic. Some magic may still be helpful for a time, but what is most useful is to learn that your fears are not real. Likewise, it is not helpful to hide from your fears by avoiding them.

Talk about your fears together without judging yourself for your fears. Be willing to see how you uphold your fears, and be willing to change habits in order to learn that your fears are not real. Also be patient with yourselves and one another. Treat yourselves like a loving parent treats a frightened child. Be gentle in addressing the fears, realizing that the child within still fears they are real.

Question: How are fears healed?

Answer: Through willingness to face them and see they are not real. At some point when the child is ready, he must look under his own bed in order to learn that there are no monsters living there.

Question: I’m seeing lots of ego in the mind as thoughts, and I am feeling a variety of emotions including sadness, desperation, hatred, resentment and fear. I am also experiencing moments of clarity, joy, and a general feeling of “its-all-perfect.” It also seems that new and exciting guidance is coming in quickly, and I am very excited to take all of these steps. I seem to alternate between the trust-mind and the fear-mind, and I’m noticing that the feeling that accompanies the fear-mind is imprisonment, while the feeling that accompanies the trust-mind is complete openness. It also seems that I cannot control the going back and forth right now, so I seem to have periods of feeling like I can breathe followed by periods of feeling like I can’t. When I am in trust-mind, it feels natural. But when I am in fear-mind, it feels real; thus the feeling of imprisonment.

I can feel that both fear and trust are present in my mind now, right this second, which explains the frantic going back and forth. What would you share now, if anything?

Answer: Looking at the mind is key. There is a great fear about looking at the mind, because there is a judgment that the mind is wrong or bad or inherently unworthy. You have been feeling lately that you are guilty for imagining bad things or for creating your own unhappiness by seeing through a selfish (or separate) perspective. When you see these realizations in the mind, you then want to feel better because you think feeling better is better (or good or worthy). What you really need to do here is look at this judgment of good and bad, and realize it is judgment of freedom, which is judgment of the Son of God.

I recommend slowness now. Slowness while observing is a peaceful way of experiencing fluctuations, and fluctuations must be seen. You can’t deny anything in the mind, which is why you must be willing to relax and experience it. As long as you deny it, it is still there, and it will persist in some form until it is embraced and accepted. To release it, you must love it, and you love it by letting it be exactly what it is. You don’t love it when you ask it to be different. You love it when you let it be what it is.

You are picking up on My guidance intuitively as you are stepping through this process. You are right to realize that you must let the thoughts go while deciding to be with the emotions. Continuing to believe the thoughts continues to recreate the experience. Letting go of the thoughts and being with the experience is accepting or embracing that which has already been created. It can also be called surrender to the moment, but you are only truly surrendered to a moment when you let it be exactly as it is without wishing it was different. (We’ve talked about this before. You can review that message it if is helpful, but more than the words, I want you to feel the energy of the message. The energy communicates to the mind in a way that words never can. Be willing to not understand intellectually, and trust that your feeling or intuition knows what to do. The more you trust your formless feeling, the more you are in touch with the guidance that gently comes from Me.)

Wait through this period, and continue to trust all things including the time you spend experiencing the fear-based mind.

Question: For us, what would you share this morning? Be very specific, please.

Answer: Tell me how you feel.

Question: I feel like I can’t be myself because the world makes too many demands on me. I want to quit, runaway, be alone and be happy.

I feel like ego is all I can hear. It is very strong, and since I know this isn’t really me, I also feel lost. I want “me” back. I feel like “me” when I live in perfect trust with a clear mind and my heart is open. Right now that isn’t my experience, so I am sad, scared and angry. I lash out in hate. I feel imprisoned.

I also just had that wonderful de ja vu experience, which seems to tell me everything is going to be ok because I am right on track now.

What would you share? Please help me. (By the way, I realize the cry for help is not helpful. I can feel it. So I place the cry for help aside realizing that the answers come from me, which means I do not need help. I am help. I am the one who comforts me.)

What would you share?

Answer: Grounding yourself is important, and this is what you did by sharing how you feel. When you share how you feel with yourself, yourself answers with what is true and what is not true. Somewhere within you, more as a feeling or intuition than as words, you hear that how you feel is not how you really feel. Something within you knows that the surface feelings, surface fears and judgments are not your truth, and so it tells you this isn’t real. You find yourself writing how you feel while also realizing from some faraway point of recognition that this isn’t true.

That faraway point of recognition that doesn’t believe your dramas as true is that which you call Me. It is your Holy Spirit, fully and perfectly aware within you. It is the Voice of Peace.

It is very important to listen to the Voice of Peace within you, and one thing this Voice is telling you is that your feelings aren’t true. This is a very literal statement. The feelings that you seem to experience and suffer from are not your true feelings. At a level within you that is deeper than the feelings you feel, those feelings are not there. They are not there because they are absent. They are absent because they aren’t real, and so they do not exist within the depth of you.

The depth of you is where you reside, and so if you are to know you at a conscious level, you must let your consciousness go there. If you stay at the surface, caught up in it as if it is real, the surface will be your experience and you will feel lost. But if you bring your consciousness to your depth, depth rises into your consciousness and that shall be your experience, even within the same experience of form.

I have told you before that it is an error to focus on your need for healing, because this makes your need for healing real. To focus on your need for healing is to remain at the surface, so the surface is your experience. You do not need healing. The healed mind exists within you now. The mind that has never lost its peace and knowledge is within you now. You cannot need healing when all perfection is a part of you. You must only get in touch with that part and know that part is the part that is real.

I have told you that zero code is zero code, and there is nothing other to learn. All you have to realize is that the false is false, and the false is not you. In letting it go as untrue, it has no effect on your experience. It is holding to it that makes it seem real for you.

We’ve talked about addiction lately, and I’ve said addiction is only illusion. Addiction is illusion because it isn’t the truth of you; it isn’t the truth of the depth of you. But at the surface, which is wholly untrue, addiction is an experience you seem to suffer with. Addiction is merely this: Addiction is staying at the surface and experiencing the surface as if it is your truth. Addiction disappears the instant you go deeper and dive into the depth of you.

I’ve said that addiction is habit. It is a habit to live at the surface of consciousness. Therefore, it takes focus to go into the depth and live your living from there. However, this focus can also become a habit, until living from your depth is a natural reaction to all circumstances of form.

I’ve told you that looking outside yourself is more hurtful than you realize. This is because you will never find yourself there. You are that which is the depth of you, and you cannot find that on the outside. To focus outside is to stay at the surface, and the surface experience will be confused with you. You will feel lost.

Do not try to bring the surface into you to fix you. You can never find an answer there. Go within. Get in touch with you, then bring that to the surface. That is the most helpful thing you can do.

Question: How is our relationship helpful to this process?

Answer: Your relationship is not anchored without. Your relationship is anchored within…deep, deep within. Your purpose together is to hold hands and touch that anchor. When you touch that anchor, you know it. The surface problems fade or disappear. Together, you are to go into that anchor. Become that anchor. Exist in and as that anchor. When you hold hands, see and speak from that anchor, separation disappears completely.

The key here is the knowing within. It is a very strong place within you. Reach in for only that, knowing it is there. Reach only in. Do not reach out. Read my messages again without adding anything to them. Read them again and see that I am clearly asking you to reach in for you, because you will find you there. Once you live from you, nothing else is a problem.